that huge hole in my jacket. by lily cummings.
(via curvesandconfidence)Source: lilycummings
The problem with falling for someone who lives halfway across the world… texting stops at 5pm my time while his world sleeps. Ugh.
So I’ve realized that when I start feeling too much, whether good or bad or toward myself or towards others… I stuff it. And when that doesn’t work, I drown them. Hence why my freezer is always stocked with vodka.
Tonight is a vodka night. Happy early b day to me.
so now you’re about to turn twenty and the world hasn’t gotten any bigger for you. you’re untouched, unloved, unprepared. your parents still pay for your gas. your friends all have internships. one of them even got cast to be in a movie. you’ve got all this talent that you don’t know how to share. you just want to fuck someone, anyone, to feel a little less like an island. the man at the McDonald’s drive-thru held both sides of your hand when he handed you your change and you cried the entire way home. skin burns. you’re about to turn twenty and you feel like you’re fifteen. you sleep for fourteen hours and still need a nap. the world is shrinking one empty heartache at a time.
you’re scared you’ll never find anyone to love you, not even well. you’ll settle for anything.
you’re about to turn twenty and they never remind you how young that is. falling in love does not make you grow up, heartbreak does, and there is more than one way to fall apart.
you’re about to turn twenty and it’s okay if you aren’t ready. it’s okay if you aren’t ready. it’s okay."